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Ice and Light by Louise Bialik
special thanks to Dr Ken Lincoln

Looking to Robert Frost's line, "Like a piece of ice on a hot stove, the poem must ride on its own melting," it is evident that heat participates in a natural relationship with Poetry. While Poetry is tempered by soul and emotion, its heat may change from intense red to warm blue depending on environment and conditions. Thus a poem can behave like ice and be of a natural, organic, liquid consciousness, or perhaps watery thought aspiring to solidify when leaving a Poet's soul for some frozen new sheet of paper (or new word document file for that matter).

While a poem, like ice, may exist in various forms-- chiseled, cubed, crushed, sloshy-- such depends on the mood of the Poet who in every respect is a Refrigerator storing his condensation of ideas. His volatile ideas are hot with different sorts of heat, and the atmosphere of his poems may also yield certain condensations, to be stored like frozen foods in static state until another person comes along to ignite with reading. Once read, those volatiles are reheated, and the Poet's soul emits energy to "let the poem ride along its own melting." Thus, if poems can behave akin to ice, and a Poet is a Refrigerator of the sort, where does this condenser energy come from? There are different ways to power a refrigeration unit -- abstractly electrical like a modern Westinghouse appliance, or by pure organic means of windmills, watermills... solar panels.

While a Poet as a Refrigerator may create poems like an ice machine, his mood is influenced and dependent upon his immediate surrounding. Therefore, a poem cannot be looked at without keeping in mind of the atmosphere it was created from. Seeing that a Poet is like a Refrigerator, and that there are two ways to power a Poetry Machine --abstractly or organically-- one must question the heat permeated upon a Poet which reflects his writing atmosphere and mood. If a refrigerator is run from two base states, abstract or organic, there are then two base energies: electric and fire. Of these two base energies, there is one common emission: heat, or rather, light.

As light is The Force that which stimulates the Green Fuse to flower, and if a Poet as an ice machine needs energy to run, then it can be deduced that up until the introduction of modern appliances, a Poet's ice was produced by organic means and therefore of a raw energy influenced by solar and fire heats, or rather, the result of sitting beside a burning flame late at night or while enjoying the sun's rays. Such luminescence inspired the fire based 19th Century Poetry of Blake, Donne, Shelley, Keats, and Coleridge. Meanwhile, what can be said of 20th Century Poetry is that language and form has dramatically shifted for an era where most Poets sit underneath electric lights during the day, and as a consequence, experience a psychological trauma since Poetry desires to be written under the influence of Nature's organic lights.

Poetry's desire to be written under fire/solar influence is made evident when taking a look at the behaviors and reactions of 20th century Poets (Schwartz, Crane, Welch, Sexton, Jarrel, Kerouac, Lowell, Berryman, Plath) who wrote under the influence of synthetic drugs and alcohol, electric typewriters, and tungsten lamps. Much machinery, too, was going on, has been going on with telephones, televisions, teleports and all this extra noise leaps from the static background and infiltrates human psyche like invisible parasites. The consequence of synthetic incandescence and experience of unwanted mind pollution can cause unhappiness, suicide, or accidental death by the combination of depression and addiction.

Perhaps it is an ambitious proclamation to state or suggest that it's the lighting situation that killed so many of America's great contemporary poets, but as I write from an intuitive place, this is a moment of discovery for me, and there may be the chance that later down the road I will recant or modify my present views, but this is not a disclaimer or excuse. For the present, I stand by the view that light is a contributing factor to a Poet's mental and artistic health. I have felt the strong influence of light affect my own writing when noticing how my mood changed according to the light's changes. For example, when I wrote beside a fireplace, with a fountain pen bleeding upon good quality paper, I wanted to honor that moment and felt cautious about writing something corny because I feared being wasteful of the good utilities. However, I become a different kind of writing creature when strung out on coffee in front of my laptop with all the houselights on. In fact, I feel every right to be loose and risk-taking. As a result, we get a poem such as follows:
Horse Play Schema

. . .The Three Horsemen:
. . .Tarot Study of Miss Plath in pursuit of Mr Lowell
. . . whilst preparing for Mr Hughes to forget her father

. . .X Swords . . . .. . The student lies examined upon a sheet of ink
. . .IX Cups. . . . . .. of black sky - a happy wish, a fulfillment, a sigh
. . .VI Pentacles. . . . and underneath, the hoarding of smallish lies
. . .Knight Pentacles . .which Cautiously pass whether intuited or sketched
. . .IX Batons . . . . . Words may never prepare one's Worth for battle
. . .VI Swords . . . . . there is always departure - retreat! - surrender
. . ..X Batons . . . . . Yet in my house, I will carry what I can
. . .V Pentacles. ...... tho Destitute you see me, I no Orphan am
. . .Knight Cups . ... . Lo, Great white horse of Dream, mine own, rush charged
. . .Knight Batons. . .. and flushed orange, blurt Keen, Assured, Disarmed

The poem took ten minutes to melt. And this was a poem I wrote over a month ago and haven't thought of since. As I now write over what I previously wrote, I discover that what I wrote under the influence of electronics doesn't mean much to my heart. In fact, it's very difficult to go back and bring current something old with newness to find a consistent voice. Yet, because I felt something the first time around, I ought to honor that old feeling and let it remain untouched as I am not one to favor Pound's self-censorship au condensare, for I have that 'protective parent' sense that sometimes in the act of deleting lines, Truth is excised. This is probably what happened in Eliot's Waste Land... but then too, Waste Land is a damn good poem.

Returning to the Horse Play Schema poem, I felt inspired to experiment with electric chance as we had been looking at Sylvia Plath to understand Emily Dickinson. So I drew out some old cards, shuffled, and posited the question - "I Sylvia, am a star pupil?" The answer, laid out at the left margin, is translated at the right -- We could say that this a Gestalian/Jungian experiment. What does it reflect? A student desiring competence. My relationship with Sylvia is that I admire her art but feel betrayed by her suicide. If there is anything attractive about her that I'd wish for myself, it would be her command of language and confidence, but then too, even these attributes were shoddy shields fending fragile fears. So I prefer to be clumsy and nervous if down the road, after exposure, practice and patience, I'll someday write sans hesitation.

As for the poem, I think this tarot formula worked nicely as it achieved, two pseudo-heroic quatrains (a(b)bba, aabb) with single couplet. Each line is an abbreviation of a card's content which when placed in past, present, future context creates a story board with active metaphors. The first and second lines are 'run-ons' enjambing smoothly, taking on ironic effect. Ironic when the disenchanted subject evokes the white horse to Muse her and telling of my own private foolery.

To amplify internal rhymes, I capitalised words-- this arrived intuitively as we've been reading Emily who was prone to Big Cased Letters for word-boostering. Also, "sheet of ink of black sky" is another Emily reference - "Sheet of Place" where "sheet" is not just an expanse of sky but a piece of paper bled upon by an overzealous student (my Plath trope). And then too is the innuendo of "words" and "worth".

As for images and meaning-- it's rather curious how three Knights came into the spread. Knights in readings are messengers, writers and artists, miniature mentors who, like Mentor, lead Telemachus to find his father, Odysseus. Considering Sylvia's Electra complex, it's spooky how this came up.

The word "orphan" came to me because it's about Denial. The subject here rejects her condition as a last ditch to declare independence but all Poets are Orphans of Orpheus. They are abandoned children like Wm Blake's chimney sweepers questing to find Father God and be told "You're OK." The metaphor continues outside the poem for me. It opens up sudden visions to see that perhaps Poets write to restore Eden by rebuilding God's Temple out of Alphabets, not bricks.

The 3 Horsemen are also Apocalyptic and fairy talish, they arrive at the scene in Sylvia's past, her present, and future in the way that Grimms huntsmen travel in 3s to warn off young maidens to not stray from the path. But this telling is only in the margin only. According to the events on the left margin, Sylvia has never been left unguided, yet her persona speaks from the voice of one buried under a wish, the 9 Cups. Swords in this reading are pens. I could invent more arguments since readings, like poems, can be translated into anything if one makes the effort. Come to think of it, let's mutate this poem to make better use of the symbols in the left margin:

. . . . .X Swords . . .. . . So the student lies examined upon a sheet of ink,
. . . . .IX Cups . . . . . . soaked like blackened sponge? My wish fulfillment
. . . . .VI Pentacles . . . .card gone 'Sunder, is but cheated lies
. . . . .Knight Pentacles .. Cautiously glossed under Horsemen's eyes
. . . . .IX Batons .. . . . .Words can never prepare one's Worth for battle
. . . . .VI Swords .. . . . .there is always departure - retreat! - surrender
. . . . .X Batons . . . ... .Yet at my pace, sticks like vowels I carry to unplunder
. . . . .V Pentacles . .. . .tho' oddly orphaned I seem, - I manage, maneuver
. . . . .Knight Cups . . . . Ride the white horse of Dream, alone, unarmed
. . . . .Knight Batons .. . .Pulse wrought and keen, and mean--.. no harm

This revision has an energetic "So there!" tone while the original feels passive. Although there's clearer definition of the images on the left, I prefer the first draft because it feels more honest.

Honesty is what makes poems 'good Poems' - What then about manipulation? Manipulation is an art of chiseling whereas heart-spoken Poems are divined gems. Then too, the conscious effort to craft words by ordering, reordering, editing, revising is another kind of truthful work. Does this mean cut verse versus shaggy verse is verse made worse? No, just terse!

In wrapping up on this tarot poem, I asked myself, what was it that caused me to lose interest in Sylvia? Answer: Sexton. When I got to know Anne, I wanted to know less of Sylvia/Anne's unhealthy fascination with Death. For my own survival, I shelved them both. However, after reading Ted's Birthday Letters, I could forgive Sylvia somewhat. I will say it's much easier for me to forgive Sylvia than Anne. Oh bluther, Poets can seem so sick yet are more to be sympathised with than punished.

On matters of punishment and Poetry, what is punishable? Are there any laws to Poetry? There are rules to most forms whether Sonnet, Imagist, or Free. Why then if no laws exist do Poets suffer? It is once again a question of light and heat, of electricity versus fire, and the natural versus the synthetic. But before any of such, there is a deeper, mythological pain since Poetry is about having an encounter with Chaos and entering Dis-order for re-establishing grace with God in Eden. It is also about being in the Dis-ness of Earth's "Hell On Earth" which is no Disneyland light show. And so long as we're talking about Heaven, according to the Book of Genesis, God told Adam to stay away from His Tree of Good and Bad because it had fruit that would Doom him. "Doom" may sound lousy but "doom" is a "wyrding" a"fating" which means "blessing" And like wine, the Doom can infect mind or enliven soul. Doom is a "certain slant of light" which radiates positive and negative energies and is a matter of metabolising the right dose. If, Poets, like antennae are tuned-in, installed with radial Noumena/Mana/JuJu/MoJo, there can be madness when personal sensitivities are thrown off kilter by over-exposure or under-exposure to Beauty's radiation.

Writing Poetry is like capturing electricity in mason jars. It is a process of reassembling shards of broken letters. It is a battle with The Force That Through the Green Fuse Drives the Flower. Words are synapses which shoot alphabets in dark ravines, illuminating consciousness but for brief instants. Words are constructs. A Poet's pain is about being zapped by the Force, internalizing disorder as the exchanged property or Tax paid to behold Beauty in Her loveliest of Forms - Poetry. Madness is a symptom of over-exposure or under-exposure. Disorder is an imbalance, and when a Poet is in pain, Dis is present. Why disorder? Disorder is a compliment to God and to Nature. That which does not naturally fit on Earth or can be expressed in language are constructs Heaven Sent and therefore too extraterrestrial for the human mind to process alone. However, with some calmness, a Poet may filter through these constructs, translate meaning and achieve Harmony for Self and for Humanity. As Shelley said, "Poets are the Legislators of The World."


God's fruit, especially forbidden, is alluring. A Poet is a Promethian-Adam fire liar of the sort. He claims to offer a sacrifice yet profits from the fruits of his labour. When realizing that he's cheated God out of His divine signature, the egoist-poet-painter turns yellow and experiences depression. It's a terrible feeling to be so elevated in Paradise then plunged to Earth. The falling is some kind of voluntary Self Fracture for penance i.e. 'See God, see? I flew too close to Your Beauty and my syntactic wings melted and now I'm burning, and ah, I'll never do it again. Please send the birds to eat at my liver. I really want to make amends to you. Sorry... Sorry!' - Such ascensions are Manic while descensions are Depressive and stimulate suicidal fantasies as if to play out conflict for resolution.

Suicidal fantasies, I think, are subconscious efforts to humble oneself before God. Such fantasies are a backwards way to experience humility when really Divine Intent prefers one to enjoy life. My feeling is that somewhere along the Judeo-Christian infection of the world, religious institutions felt threatened and turned to organised crime by capitalising on dark fear, making believers out of God-fearing people when fear maintains a plentiful resource of tithe. Yet Poetry as a natural light survives because it is filled with Truth which is unstoppable and no darkness can weaken its light. It is what Pound coloured "unkillable" and "sturdy," and keeps the Poets fed from golden apples.

. . . . . Where is Poetry lifted? From the Tree of Poems Poet-Tree
. . . . . The Tree, an unpolished book, and the Poeme, a fruit of Paradise -
. . . . . Poem = Poeme = Pomme = Apple
. . . . . Poetry = les Poemmes des Yeux de Dieu = the Apple of God's Eyes
. . . . . Whose Apple? Adam's!
. . . . . . . . . .


What happened with this naming business? Well, for starters, it's all arbitrary to say What Happened "3,000 years ago," but one thing true is that the Tree's fruit probably wasn't an apple but a pomegranet since apples don't grow in the Sumerian desert. Even the Christian Bible (St Joseph's) agrees with this apple-fig(-pomegranet) inconsistency. The St Joseph Christian Edition says, 'it was indeed a fig.' So why are we misnaming pomegranet-figs with apples?

Man's essential self needs purpose for fulfillment. The metaphor of creationism creates purpose. On Earth, man's instinct is introduce order by naming things. What's in a name? Worth, zest, enchantment. My name is special because it is mine. Someone else named me. When my mother married my Armenian father, "Louise" transformed from Hellenic "warrior" to Armenian "light" - "Luys". Next to my first name is my grandfather's surname which is from a Hebrew Poet, Chaim Bialik, and means "white" in Polish. The two side by side become "white light" and makes me feel somewhat fortunate. So a name may offer esteem.

One of my favourite pass times is to give names to animals. There were many in France. With all the lap dogs at my leisure, I rewarded the Great Force by naming pooches in trains, cafes, villages. It was Darwinian to do so. To name is to claim, and in claiming there is security, a friend, a safe place, and the light of Poetry. Naming firstly brings order upon a disordered planet which conceals fear under congeniality to avoid being bitten by the unnamed or unfamiliar, and the reason why we really smile -- I flash my teeth to show you that I have the means to bite, then over time, my smile presupposes a greeting. Coyotees and chimps don't flash their teeth to say 'Howdy' but do so to protect themselves. The need for brandishing dissipates once language is introduced for expressing the most important words known to man: Don't, No, and Yes. Secondly, as we evolve with language, we can manage to experience higher forms of dialogue expressed in the arts and sciences, to establish Departments of Humanities in the Universities and study its origin and intent to learn that language is but complex word constructs which civilize the Neanderthal in us all.

And now it's time for a good story: Once upon a time, I named a neighborhood cat, "Friendly," as I felt a special love for her and wanted to become her mama. So I bought her a flea collar, inked her name and put my phone number on it, then let her out, thinking she'd have more joy now that she was adopted. A month later, her collar changed and had a different number and name - Mi Mi. This irked me, so I phoned the neighbor, intending to reclaim Friendly's devotion, but after chatting with my neighbor, we laughed at our ridiculous pursuit to possess a cat who refused to care where she made her allegiance. In the end, Friendly MiMi Cat had many bowls and names, and through many series of collar changes, new neighbors were introduced and new friends made.

Since we've talked about names, let's talk about titles. What are titles for? Titles behave like bullets summarizing theme, emotion, ideas, to be extreme shorthand chorusing content in a cluster. Poems on the other hand are like the extended-mix versions of titles. In Schwartz's "I Am Cherry Alive The Little Girl Sang" there is a big hint of what to look for from the title to observe a happy child who totemically names herself, invoking joy. Yet Delmore's Girl felt sad for her adults had torn down their totems. They forgot how to have fun with their words and names. As Delmore was an electric Prosperian Poet, dwelling in the memory of fire lit Washington Heights, battling with Bellevue, subways, gloomy pubs, electric based dwellings, he forgot what he knew and bid adieu. Had he hung on to his Girl she would have guided him out of Plato's Cave. Then too, it's difficult to lead the drunk out of Dis. Delmore's problem may have been having too much Ariel in his Prosperian Chi, and stopped looking to see Beauty Universal.

Poets desire to honor Beauty Universal. Yet children of Adam have been ejected out of Eden and God doesn't answer the phone. Therefore Eden transforms into an internalization, and God, a Voice from Within. Depending on one's lucidity and ability to transliterate the primoridal Yawp called 'insights of conscience,' or 'soul illuminations,' there are various degrees of health reflected in illness which tempers the DNA of a Poet's blood, be it Prosperian (type-A/Fire based), Arielian (type-B/Electric based) or blended (type-AB/Artificial fire). Non-Poets are type-O receivers, listeners, borrowers and are the majority.

Returning to the tarot poem, I took a risk and let chance form a story around Sylvia's history as an unconscious Jungian experiment. Cards were a natural approach because she played with ouijas and divined poems from seashells. I imagine that much of her inspiration was organically stimulated by an imagination so potent that both Boogie Men and Mnemosyne were more than real to her-- they were her foster parents. How could a green name like Sylvia compete with the ephemeral light of Aurelia or empirical power of Otto? By becoming their mutant hybrid. Sylvia is very much like the figure Ariel in Shakespeare's comedy, Tempest, hunting for her father Otto (Prospero) since she was cheated by his premature death. Therefore, to my sense or prejudice, Slyvia took revenge upon her father by destroying her mother, and when her mother not available, destroyed herself in her mother's place.
. . . . . No more shorthand! Death to shorthand! Death to all simplistic forms of literacy!
. . . . . The World will be solely comprised of Latin,
. . . . . Prufrock, Sappho, Villanelle, Auden, Yeats, and...
. . . . . and... what good are all these wondrous powers
. . . . . without a fool to reflect my garden lovelies?

To make the destruction worthwhile Sylvia needed an audience -- MEN, an audience to mirror what amazing feats of suffering she could accomplish in herself and for others. But she was quite a trickster because she was a WINNER, earning prizes from Browne, Mdmselle, Eliot's home, even Hughes-- You'd have to wonder what was it to make her chuck all that away. Why abandon the best? Because things are things and sometimes a thing can't eliminate a bad feeling. Sylvia would like to trick us into thinking that Death was exactly what she wanted. But why did she feel so bad? I can't step inside to know. All I have are traces and this isn't enough when I'm just a bystander. She was indeed clever, yet to be wholly clever, she needed to steal the fire from her Gods -- men in Daddy's intellectual form. When she met Lowell, there was an infatuation so strong that she armed herself with Thesarus and religiously consulted it to prepare for when he'd come 'Tommyhawking' polysyllabically (according to Dido Merwin). A little older, Sylvia was self-assured enough to draw blood in a kiss when meeting her future husband, and esteemed her art to be more manipulation than inspiration. Such attitude is akin to the Prosperian who concerns himself with being precisely smart. And yet, Sylvia was no Prosperian Poet. She was and will remain, forever Arielian.

What is a Prosperian Poet, what is an Arielian Poet? It is a flashing communicade between myself and my lovely poet friend, Stephen Yenser. Somehow, somewhere we got to talking about the temperament of Poets and how Poets seemed to be fixed into two categories. Those who survive and those who suicide. And someone was reading about archetypes and then "Prospero" and "Ariel" were introduced to the table. None of us, I think, ever got around to defining the types on paper but I have thought about this off an on for five or so years, and now will attempt a diagram:

Traditional, Stanzaic
Calm Blue Water

Ted Hughes
Alexander Pope
Theodore Roethke
Robert Lowell
Elisabeth Bishop
Hilda Doolittle
Ezra Pound
T S Eliot
Delmore Schwartz S
Henry Melville
Samuel Coleridge ED
Matthew Arnold
W.H. Auden
Wallace Stevens
Dylan Thomas S
William Wordsworth
Free Versed
Lucid Green Earth

Walt Whitman
Langston Hughes
John Keats ED
William Blake
Thich Nhat Hahn
D H Lawrence
Robert Bly
Robert Frost
Lawrence Ferlinghetti
John Donne
Wm Carlos Wms
William Saroyan
Seamus Heaney
John Stuart Mill
William Emerson
Henry D. Thoreau
Rainer Marie Rilke
Lyric, Prosaic
Firey Red Fire

Dante Sylvia Plath S
Emily Dickinson
Anne Sexton S
Randall Jarrell S
John Berryman S
Geoffrey Chaucer
Rimbaud ED
Jack Brewer
Baudelaire ED
Percy Shelley ED
Dory Previn
Lew Welch S
Jack Kerouac S
Chris Marlowe ED
Robert Burns
Lewis Carroll
H.P. Lovecraft
Alfred Tennyson
Jim Carroll
S =suicide . . ED=early death . . G. Stein fits outside around the borders. She is Unique.

While halfway succeeding in threading this optional essay with explorations of ice and fire, I now leave the confusing Arielian/Prosperian/Naming portion for a more personally terrifying moment: my most recent poems.

                            CRAS AMET
                           O sure, I useta be angree with Ye, America
                           but when everything I loved, or needed
                           was taken away, my warm home and little dog, too
                           gone, I understood E.B.'s Art Of Losing as a favor
                           even though I could barely cipher my own crying
                           with the earth breaking
                           Under my bed
                           and the offices that hunted my last dime
                           (borrowed from a friend), the art of losing came easy
                           And saved me from losing my mind
                           Like all things great or small, 
                           losing is no difficulty at all
                           Or worth getting too hung up on, 
                           over, or even obsessed
                           things are things after all
                           And no thing, institution or incorporation
                           is a thing to trust or call Great Parent,
                           University Animal Kingdom
                           but Quicksand--
                           It took Jerusalem
                           And an old man
                           To teach me
                           "No land is Holy, Sister"
                           Not even the University Research Library of Hugh G Dick
                           Can hold its name against money, Chuckie Baby
                           survey where it all began:
                           O the University! O the University!
                           What is my Manifesto?
                           What is Not my manifesto.
                           Static-dyslexic and hungry born
                           my baby world whirred a Vorticist's plume
                           With child eyes, I strained to read through radiation
                           of Johnson,  Nam, Nixon and Moon Men
                           and how to apply logic in sentences
                           brief, non-analytical, absorbed, but felt
                           in the absence of Dorothy's weeping Tin Man
                           though apparently parentless in the seventies
                           when every adult was hippyspock and baby lovin'
                           according to my first true father, Lewis Welch
                           who took a tour of the inner forest and never returned
                           (May he rest in peace if he is indeed not Sasquatch),
                           the world I saw began from Spam,
                           and there I spun on a Big Wheel of baby dreams
                           dreaming for the Ultimate Library
                           that someday, Underdog would swoop me away        
                           To call me Librarian Lu Lu, and say, "I love you. I love you."             
                           My manifesto is like all the rest-- Exquisite
                           Corpse Bretonic Surrealist 
                           Kino-Eye-esque Futurist
                           Imagist Modernist 
                           Harlem-Renaissance-Est und zee
                           Zen Buddhist 13 Blackbirds 
                           13 Precepts Suturist that
                           could very well be said to be Palimpsest 
                           slapped under Palimpsest
                           So I look to the Eye to read the Pravda
                           of benevolent Realisme in Rosellini and Dziga
                           And know what thou wilt according to the Law
                           if Law be known or the known ever realized
                           And this has nothing to do with the multitude of pseudosciences
                           founded in the Masonic HermeticQuabbalisticRoscicrucian jibberjabber
                           But for the Green Force that flows through the Green Fuse
                           of the Green World in this Unreal Civitas (thank you T.S.)
                           So my mind paints and is saved by paintings                      
                           Littering the concrete grafitti of imagination
                           Spliced every now and then, a Gertrude Stein nonce
                           And married with the real
                           if real be this, if real be this
                           What is my Manifesto?
                           My manifesto is not sliced bread
                           Sliced white bread of unpolysaturated fats
                           soluable in diet-Pepsi at the drive-thru, 
                           any drive-thru, 24 hours
                           it freaked me out when I had to buy baguettes for the first time
                           and asked the bread lady, "Avez-vous pain... coupe en tranch?"
                           Which made her laugh and say, "amuseant,"
                           and send me off crying in fear of everything
                           All my life, I had been afraid of Bread Ladies In Waiting
                           All my life, bread was sliced, sealed in seran, 
                           never never questioned
                           No interaction between baker and buyer
                           just pre-sliced, pre-buttered, pre-heated miricales
                           And so I learned to believe in Peanut Butter
                           Jiffy's, Peter Pan, Skippy, Laura Scudders
                           the nuts that taught me Wonderbread was miracle flour
                           And so I dreamed to spread Pan upon Wonderpain
                           To fulfil my American purpose
                           To consume and be consumed by white fluff
                           then I learned the world of pain
                           which hardens in a day
                           but crumbs well for swans
                           in Lac Leman, in Lac Leman
                           		"Cras Amet!" My she-dog whelped
                           		in the sacred hour of Parnassus
                           	She secreted starshine for the Valley of my mind
                           	in an olden golden cave oozing with must and mold,
                           	and I embraced her as Heavenly Aegis, Isis, Mnemosyne
                           	for what Kusnacht could not teach Her, Hilda trained me
                           	along the vacant marinas of Versoix, "Cras Amet! Cras Amet! 
                           	Let those who have not loved today, love tomorrow--"
                           	And so I waited out the days and became expert at Xs
                           In the sacred hour of our Pompeii-Parnassus
                           I learned the sacred art of reading, and crossing,
                           And took vow to Truth, then She with starshine
                           made Christmas from darkness, and Memory
                           lessoned forgetfulness to find New Beauty          ,
                           in Lac Leman where wind and wear were kind
                           avec unbent alphabet, I wandered lost through Purgatoire, 
                           rue du Fer et rue de Rive pour patience, dipped in Paquis,
                           in Leman and Calisto, climbed Masada, floated Dead Sea
                           for patience and mercy, and there along the Via Della Rosa 
                           retrieved memory of little red book, Da's abandoned choruses;
                           All this with broken banjo and baby dreams,
                           never answers, save for reminders
                           that to trust was to experience  
                           the undressed Christ in us
                           and be blessed no less

The next poem is an imaginary reaction of Hilda Doolittle's older brother, Gilbert, telling Ezra Pound off for abandoning his sister in London. While Pound was writing Canto 1, in 1917, there was a war going on. This was also the time when H.D. miscarried a child, which coincided with the deaths of her brother and father. It was a time when Pound felt inspired to invoke the Odyssey to trope his guilty feelings for not contributing to the war effort:

. . .. . . . . .Canto Can't One

. . .. . . . . .Bowled out of the swarty, arm-deep pit ladden with pitch
. . .. . . . . .sprinkled he then his holocaust of barley, wine and ox for sheep,
. . .. . . . . .o'er my soul-less ash for Circe's console. What man,
. . .. . . . . .Coward cheateth me with ox for sheep? No Name!
. . .. . . . . .Beloved Hilda who wrote by firelight until dawn rose, my twin,
. . .. . . . . .hewn prose for such promise and parted from our father's foam
. . .. . . . . .for a word which you gave ad infinitum

. . .. . . . . .ad infinitum, venerandum, hum tee dum

. . .. . . . . .Lest the popular poplar maenad's marrow strewed her soody roots
. . .. . . . . .kindly kindling kindred kunstmen who chewed, dragged and clobbered
. . .. . . . . .the sturdiest systems of stems for the most wretched of lexicologists
. . .. . . . . .for whose gifts we hath receiveth, severed at prefix, at base root
. . .. . . . . .in the name of Mercy let those least loved, love, cras amet

. . .. . . . . .you went went went!

. . .. . . . . .I knew you, in a ring of poem, in a ring of bone stripped from Minotaur
. . .. . . . . .and human thigh. Mercury made us insane with his purpled cosmology,
. . .. . . . . .O but could we return to Bethlehem and sit by the fireside
. . .. . . . . .the necessity for blood and forgiveness would not make us
. . .. . . . . .take such disparate measures, lost cousin, for who so loveth,
. . .. . . . . .leadeth, cras amet, know you not

. . .. . . . . .the effect of this ill affair, ill star
. . .. . . . . .who cutteth my darling Dryad,
. . .. . . . . .limb by limb, line by line au condensare
. . .. . . . . .and flung her branches to Avernus for Shaksepeare
. . .. . . . . .is an ill effect unspoken but known. What man, Ezra,
. . .. . . . . .calls to me now with arm in ash for absolution?
. . .. . . . . .Three hundred million men and yet you go on
. . .. . . . . .imitating Ulysses in a Kensington café?
. . .. . . . . .My Fagels to your Divus is an update to this hubris

. . .. . . . . .Erase me then in twenty-four books and six-hundred lies
. . .. . . . . .and mend me seaweed-set to sea; wreaths of oxen consolation
. . .. . . . . .in this spirited world do not appeal to me.

Lastly is a meditation on Robert Frost's 'ice melting on a hot stove,' married to Wallace Steven's
Valley Candle:

. . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . . . Ice Box

. . .. . . . . .My ice cube slid singularly along a shelf of steel
. . .. . . . . .Streamed in possibilities, imprinting imagination
. . .. . . . . .(Until the back burner blew)

. . .. . . . . .Then dreams of possibilities dared to stream
. . .. . . . . .Exported in pools of singularity
. . .. . . . . .(Until the other burner blew)

. . .. . . . . .Then I knew, I knew the ice cube slid
. . .. . . . . .Along a shelf of steel, it did-- the watershed of imagination
. . .. . . . . .Melted upon a solitary ride and there found wet my soul inside

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